Alcoholics & Addicts-A Story at Serenity Life California Rehab

Addicts and alcoholics, many times can tell you that their life has been a “living hell.” I have written a book that is still in the works, but the first chapter is titled “Welcome to my Hell.” I hated my life and literally found my life despicable. It wasn’t a new phenomenon, since many that are stuck in that lifestyle can relate to this idea. The police were after me due to warrants I had for numerous arrests and failure to appear for these cases. Everybody I knew was either dead, on the run from the police, in prison, or in jail. I didn’t exactly know what to do. I was a meth addict that was out of control.


I was always looking for that horrible, despicably disgusting crap that had warped my brain and had taken away all of my morals, the people that cared about me, my feelings, and maybe even my soul. I did sometimes fantasize about a normal life, if there really was such a thing; of owning a house, getting married, having a stable job that could provide security without fear of getting arrested and going to jail or prison. If that life existed, I had no idea of how to get it.


I feared that stuff. It literally was killing me, but I didn’t think I could stop because I wasn’t really sure what would happen. I truly believed that I might die without it. How do you stop something that you truly believe is keeping you alive and functioning but killing you at the same time? This is what I believe, to be the true meaning of “between a rock and a hard place.” I am writing this to hopefully give those that may not understand addiction, the thinking process that is sometimes happening with those caught up in the substance abuse problem. Many keep doing it, even though they may not like it because it seems to be the lesser of two evils.

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